wow what a few months

will be 20 weeks pregnant on Friday and i can't wait to meet our new member of the family. i have had a different pregnancy this time with morning sickness and my sense of smell has gone up, my bump seems massive this time and its really sticky outy.. but i am now at that nice time in pregnancy and feel full of life.
we have our scan on Tuesday so i am really looking forward to seeing our baby again.
the house is getting there soon to have windows and doors so i am very happy with that.

there have been a few ups and downs lately but i know i should not let them get to me but they do things change and sometimes you have to learn to let go and see what path life takes you down, and i truly believe that one day things might get back to how they were but for now i just have to accept that things are the way they are. from one month to the next i don't know where i stand and i now i don't know what to say and i don't think i can bring myself to start talking about it because i don't think it will change. all i want is for people to be happy for me and my family and to accept that i am moving on and i am happy and i am not always going to be that person that people pertained me to be. i am very proud of what we have done and how we went from days where we didn't even have enough money for a pint of milk to turning our life around and getting somewhere in life. and nobody is going to bring me down for feeling happy about my life.....enough said


Blake is really settled in his new school. He is top of the class in maths and moving up in his reading really quickly i am very proud of him. his football is going well and he still loves it.

sonny is amazing he is in too everything but so funny and clever and gives the best cuddles. i can't believe he is 17 months its flown by. poor little monkey had chicken pox a few weeks back but he is doing fine now just a few scabs left.

well my fingers are dead so i am going to carry this on tomorrow

have not blogged it for a while

Well i can't believe my little man is one this month the time and just gone so quick. 

i have so much going on in my life at the moment , driving, selling my house and  building a house. Sonny's 1st birthday, Blake changing schools.

first off i just want to be driving now and after a few set back's once again its now the end of the month. but my little boy being really unwell was my first concern.

my bungalow is now on right move an i do fill sad its been my home for 5 years and we have spent so much time and money making it our own. i love this place but its just a stepping stone ...

well everything with the build is going really well. we own the land and are now ready to build we have brought a caravan. and it won't be long and we will be living in maylandsea.

its going to be hard work but so worth it... when me and hunky family are sitting on our decking looking at our lovely big garden and the boats  and lovely blue sky i will look back and know its all been worth it.

it's all coming together  yay

 

beautiful lyrics... elbow puncture repair

I leaned on you today
I regularly hurt but never say
I nearly wore the window through
Where was air sea rescue?
The cavalry with tea and sympathy
You were there
Puncture repair

I leaned on you today
I regularly hurt but never say
You patched me up and sent me on my way
I leaned on you today

on the move

Sonny is now crawling. for week's now he has been trying getting the hump and crying. But this morning he did it and now he just wont stop... the word NO has come in too force a lot today.

He got from the living room to the kitchen to Blake's room and found Blake's go go's ... oh dear think this is the start.

but i am not moving stuff well if its dangerous then yeah i will move it but he will learn not to touch well i hope he will.

got to say i did have a few tears this morning about it its amazing how quick its gone . when did my baby go from being a newborn to a crawler lol... but right now he is falling asleep with a bottle of milk and looks like a little baby got to cherish every moment time is a valuable thing......

hello cupcakes

i just want to make cupcakes and after only a little bit of searching i have found some amazing cupcakes... god if only i could make one's like this lady  www.flickr.com:photos:65668398

Brothers

After have a nice brothers pear cider like i always do i read the labels ... shampoo bottles,lotions you name it i read the label.... but this one by far was the best and it gave me a moment and only those people that have been to glasto would understand..... it said

Brothers Drinks have been a feature of Glastonbury

festival since 1995. it has taken four brothers and 14

generations of cider makes to create this uniquely 

satisfying cider.

Enjoy chilled,over ice or in a muddy field.

love it

ESIOTROT~~~~~~~~~

So finally after years of wanting a tortoise we have two. Blake has named his Fred but i still can't decide what to call him i have had so many people on face book giving me idea's but i still can't decide. i don't know if they are girls or boy's and won't know until they are around four  years old.

there bred is marginated tortoise and they come from grease/turkey and Italy and are  one of the rarest Europe. they like to climb and bury them self under there bedding.

when they get bigger there shell will flare out at the back like a skirt very cool.

at the moment they fit in too the palm of my hand they have there own personality.

they really are amazing

it's making me smile

its strange how just a bit of weather can make you feel so good. every time i walk out the door i smile to my self because the sunshine make me feel happy. 

it been a nice week this week and i am so happy abut Blake getting a good report at school and as i thought his maths is great. the first one on the carpet to say the sum in his head out loud every time amazes me as i am a finger counter. D'OH

he has this obsession with monopoly and i thought it would have been gone by now but he still loves it. but he is so hard to play agent's not that he cheats just that he gives you the answers about how much change you need or vise verser before you have even looked at the card its amazing his memory. 

and to top it off he got a gold award on Monday for his reading then another on Tuesday for math's. very proud i must say.

Sonny has got his 6Th tooth come through poor thing he looks so sweet  so little but full of teeth.

and sonny loves to dance this week it started with Stevie wonder very superstitious and has gone on from there and he goes in time its so cool.

what a move...

Well we are moving and i can't wait. 

But i can't believe we are doing a self build its something we have always said we wanted to do but it seems like it has come around a lot quicker then expected.

When we went to look at the land i just fell in love with it the area is beautiful and the house is amazing. It already had full planning permission for a 4 bedroom 3 story town house. And next door have already build the same house so we new what it will be like because there is two next door.

On Saturday we went to see the house next door but one so we could get a real feel of what its like the moment I walked it I fell in love with it. So much space  . And i must say i am excited to have a laundry room and cloakroom ( down stairs little loo) .

The kitchen and dinning area is amazing it has huge glass floor to ceiling door's and windows and measures 21'6 by 15'8.

We have a internal garage and parking spaces for about 4 cars.

the second floor has two bedrooms one which will be sonny's room and the other will be office/craft room.

The main bathroom is on this floor plus the living room which has views out to the mundon river . This room is 21'6 by 12'8 so another great sized room.

Then on the third floor is the master room with UN suit. This room has the most amazing window and looks out to the river. Then there is Blake's room which is alot bigger then his room now he loves his room. 

one of the best things about this house is having a big garden once the house is on the land it will be 120 feet long. because it was originally someones garden it has mature plants and tree's which are lovely and its only a stone's throw away from the water so its going to be beautiful in the summer. lots of gardening to do but when you have an amazing garden you want it too look nice . Blake loved running up and down the garden and is very excited even the thought of going to a new school really excites him. i think when it come nearer the time it will be different.

so the nest t=year is going to be full of hard work and commitment. but its all going to be worth it in the end. i am going to be starting my driving too so i wont be that far away only 30 Min's from where i am now.

wow i can't wait.

what a week

well so far things have been pretty poop...

floyd was told on friday that he would have no work this week which is worring because the mortgage is due out the weekend so we are pretty much buggered.

and to top it off i think my push chair is broke but it up this morning put sonny in it and it collapsed. so the whole way to school i had to keep clicking it in too place. and every time i went up a curb it went completely. arrrr so annoying.

luck yeah right 

feel sorry for him

i was talking to dad yesterday about the fact that sonny's birthday will always fall at glastonbury time like for instance. this year his birthday is the tuesday the day everyone normally leaves to go. and when it comes round again the weekend of the 21-23 like it normally is no one will be here for his birthday.

and to be honest me taking him is just not a opsion. he is far too young and just would not be practical.

 and i don't really feel like i am part of the glastonbury gang anymore. i am just not involved. 

oh well it was fun whilst it lasted but it looks like the end now.  not that i think anyone will be bothered if i go or not. i am just not part of it anymore.

update

well i still have not  blogged for ages i have just bee so busy and the thought has not crossed my mind.

i am going to start a new blog just about my diet plans i think if i blog everyday about what i am eating and exercising it will help me stay on track. everything is going on the diet blog the good days and the bad days. 

had a fab Christmas it was busy but that's just what chrimbo is like.and now that Blake's birthday has come and gone i can start to think about me a little bit and what i want to do this year. 

i am not setting no new years resolution or anything like that i am going to take my time and enjoying doing things i love. a no bullshit year i think. no excuses.

i do think i am too hard on myself some times and i have come to realise that things do chance when you have children. i am who i am and that's it.