todays the day

so i am going to be induced at 6 o'clock tonight. i can not believe that they leave you for 14 days before they try to induce you. i hope this time it works.

it is strange that it is the last day that it will be just 3 of us. and soon blakey will have a brother and we will have our second son.

i am scared but really excited at the same time. 

babies room is now all done i can't believe it the other day it was bare walls now its all done, Floyd done such a great job. Blake was so helpful yesterday he is such a sweety.

so the next time i write on my blog i will have baby eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

22/06/08

is the day i am being induced. 

today my midwife came too see me and after attempting to do another sweep she hold me it is really highly unlikely that i am going to have baby at home because i will need to be started off.  am not even one centimeter at the mo so she thinks one lot of gel should do it and i will get going. hopefully this time round the gel will work for me because it didn't with blakey boo. but we will have too see.

i still want it the same if i do have to go to hospital Blake will be the first to see him then depending on when i am going home i will make a decision on what happens. hopefully the gel will work i will go in too labour Sunday evening and be home by Monday night? ( wish full thinking)  if not Tuesday.

i feel OK about going in too have him as i know its the best place for me too be as i am so over my due date. the midwife also thinks that he will be at the lower end of 8lb so that's good. but you never know? 

the extension is looking amazing all the plastering is done and the underfloor heating is laid. the floor is down and the out side is now rendered . i am so happy with it my living room looks sooooooo ,much bigger its mad. i can not wait to get babies room done,

i think Blake wants to start doing dancing so i am going to have too look in too classes for him. i think street dance or break dancing would be perfect he is a right mover.  

he got all upset tonight because the photo he has of me in a little frame has fell out and he was really crying so i had to put another picture in his room he is so sensitive at times. god i love him he really is sweet.

fathers day

we had a really lovely day yesterday. we just chilled out with the family and had yummy food. Blake played football in the garden all day and didn't want to get up this morning because he was so tired. 

it was really lovely to see people.

i am going to see my midwife this afternoon and she is going to do a sweep so hopefully that will get things going. Floyd is coming with me i really didn't fancy walking up the school straight away after people say its really uncomfy to have it done. 

when i walked up the school this morning everyone just walked passed me and shock their heads they can not believe i am still pregnant. xx

and i think my son blakey boo is so clever he can read roman numerals ?  he really does amaze me.

still no sign

well he is still not here .... little monkey

i really thought i might of had him by now but nope just like Blake i am over due.  i was due on Sunday.

 i have tried everything apart from Castor oil which i think is a bit wrong really i don't want to end up getting really bad poop's and possibly baby getting a bad belly and pooping before he is out. 

the midwife is going to do a sweep on Monday so hopefully that will help  but you never know. if not i will have to go in too hospital and be induced which i really don't want to do after the nightmare i had with Blake. 

but it might not be as bad this time as he is my second. 

everything is ready to go the waiting is killing me. i have had a show now for weeks and tummy pains, strong brankston hicks but then they just go away. awwwwwwwww

i have ate a whole pineapple that did not work ( well i had more of a show after that ) think i might eat the other on tonight might as well.

and another thing that is doing my head in is the fact that  have not been any were for weeks and its driving me mad. either i am too sleepy or i don't want to go too far just in case i go in too labour. the only place i have been is asda and that was over two weeks ago lol.

well Floyd has a tooth again so that is good at least the first pictures of him with baby will be nice ones. they have done a great job on it you can not even tell. well apart from when he plays around with it and it goes lower then the other and he looks all goofy.

but he looks like my lovely Floyd again so that's all good..

and last but not least 

I AM GOING TO SEE STEVIE WONDER AT THE 02 ON SEPTEMBER THE 11TH I AM AT THE SIDE OF THE STAGE BLOCK 102 ROW B AND I CAN NOT BLOODY WAIT ITS GOING TO BE THE MOST AMAZING CONCERT EVER. WE CAN NOT REALLY AFFORD IT THE TICKETS COST £125 EACH SO I DON'T KNOW WHERE WE ARE GOING TO GET THE MONEY FROM. BUT IT WILL BE WORTH IT EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ( THANKS MUM FOR GETTING THEM FOR US)

xxx

my floyd

i was laying in bed last night thinking about my floydy... and i feel like i must write down how i feel about him and my life with him.

when we first got together i didn't think anything would come of it we were both young and had no responsibilities. i was the most jealous person in the whole world and Floyd was not really looking for a long term girl friend as such. his longest relationship was about 3 months. but it was strange that he put up with me.. i was a nightmare but he stuck by me and really did see me for me. then when i fell pregnant with Blake after only 4 months of us being together we were shocked because there was one accident and i fell. but we knew that everything would be OK i still was a nightmare with jealousy  and hated him going out with out me. it wasn't that i thought he would do anything it was my own feelings about myself that made me like that.

but as time went on and i learned more about myself and what i wanted in life the more mine and Floyd's relationship just fell in too place. when we had Blake it changed us we grew up we took responsibility and started to enjoy the fact that this was it. 

we both new that we didn't want Blake brought up in a high rise council flat in chadwell and we both knuckled down and got our self our first place which we really could not afford but we had to take the jump and it was worth it. Floyd learned that he could do anything if he tried hard which he did. he always had mad idea's about what he wanted to do but always put 100% effort in too everything he attempted even if they didn't work out in the end.  

but knew he could make good money and provide for his family and that's what he has done. after people thinking that he would never amount to anything he proved everyone wrong. 

with my support he knuckled down and passed all this exams and now is a electrician,plumber and gas fitter. he worked so hard to get where he is and i can't even say how proud i am off him

because there are no words that can describe it.

and as a dad he is amazing Blake is such a good well balanced little boy. and i know he is going to grow up too be just like his dad and that makes me so happy.  and i know that our other little boy is going to be the same.

he is my best friend and the most amazing man i have ever met and i love him so much. he makes me proud every day. he makes me laugh so much and makes me smile. he has brought out the best in me.

and what i love so much about him is that he is one of the only people that i trust 100%.  and its strange because like i said i was a nightmare and didn't trust anyone. but with Floyd its different we both have our own life but at the same time share the most amazing relationship.

i still get the butterflies and that rush of love when i give him a kiss and a cuddle. i look at him and fancy him so much. he really is my soul mate and i do thank my lucky stars that i found him and he has stuck by me. 7 and a half years we have been together and i know that we will be together forever. i can never imagine my life with out him and hope that i will never have too. i love my floydy and he makes me so proud. just like my blakey and baby. i love my family

so sleepy

god the walk up the school makes me tired. its really hard to do it now but i have got to get going i really don't want to go stupidly over. 

i think he had dropped a bit more now. he seems like he is really on my pelvis now which is why its hard to walk. 

i just can't wait.........

think i might go and have a little sleep hehe