making a turn

i think baby might be turning... this last week all i have wanted to do is wee, but i sit on the toilet and its a drip lol. which is a sign that he is pressing on my bladder. and my pelvis and hips have been hurting. i had to ask Jo to take Blake into school for me today as i can hardly walk.

i mean i have had a really busy weekend...

Saturday. Blake's football, went up to London and watched west ham and Newcastle then had Nathans. then went to ikea and got some of the bedroom furniture ( which is lovely).

Sunday. went to the boot sale with Floyd,Blake and dad, then make furniture with Floyd then went to Andrea's for a family get together ( which was soooo funny)

Monday.. doing all my house work and sorting all my clothes out, then helping Floyd sort the furniture out. and getting bits up the town which seems to make me want to go to sleep.

so yeah i am sleepy today.

no bunny come back yet think he is enjoying his freedom. Blake is really missing him. i am trying not to talk about it as he gets upset.

we have said that we will get him something else maybe a guinepig or another bunny. but i think we will wait until the extension is done then Floyd is going to make a big cage. so they can run free he he.

and its floyd's birthday tomorrow so hopefully he can have the day off and we can do something. x

run away bunny

Blake's bunny has run away.......... don't know when he went but he has gone? i thin it must of been last night because i looked out this morning and he was not in the side where you can see through so i thought he must be in the bedroom bit. then we went to the boot sale came back and i still could not see him went to check and he had gone.... must have got through the gap at the top of the door. didn't help that dad was hear and said to Blake their is probably a fox licking its lip's somewhere.... he is such a dick head sometimes. i have told Blake he has gone to find a girlfriend. what a nightmare.

size 0

i am loving baby's new lonsdale pumps they are so small... every time  someone comes round Blake shows them off... i just can't wait to see him in them with his little black skinny jeans he he

splash!!!!!!

went and watched blake do his first school swimming lesson today..... he did really well.

it was strange watching him but not being involved. but i think when baby come's i will take both of them swimming once a week hopefully floyd can do it too maybe on a saturday morning. i want to get baby swimming as soon as really. i should have done it with blake but just didn't.

i think i have just got floyd the best birthday card lol it really made me laugh. it goes well with what happened on sunday hehe.

also got him a pressie too so hope he enjoy's it..

its just started really raining.... so pleased i got in when i did?

got to go and print of the first 10 pages of my photography modules ... printer ran out of ink ?

oh and another thing

i have a strange love ...... the smell of dust..? or wet washing.  and the floor steamer smells lovely lol. i did the same with blake its so hard to explain and might sound like i am a freak but i can't help it. its a good job they are building the extension its fab... loads of brick dust.   god i sound strange.

glastonbury 2008

Its strange this year that i am not going but at the end of the day my baby is the most important thing at the moment. i am actually not that bothered that i can not go. its not just because the line up is crap or anything like that because glastonbury is what it is with or without the line up.. its amazing. 

it might sound like i am being selfish or silly but i do feel like the convo at the mo is all about glastonbury and thats it.. and not very offen is the fact that baby will be here before glasto. it seems like that is the focus. it might just be me i might just be thinking that.  it seems like i am always talking about baby but no one else is asking how he is or how i am. i always start the convo.   

i am sure when it comes to the time when he is here people will acted like they are bothered... well i hope? (feeling sorry for myself lol)

i think baby is tryng to turn the movements are so sharp and uncomfy at the mo... and he really has a sleep pattern. i know when he is going to wake up and when he is most active.  he likes to move around when i am eating my dinner.. and wakes up when he hears my voice when i first wake up in  the morning.. i love that.

i just can't wait for him to be here... not long now 49 day's he he

course

signed up for my course and got my first module... just wish my printer would print it... stupid thing. it seems fab i am really looking forward to starting it. the first module is cameras and lenses...  for once in my life i will actually be doing something for me and i will have a dipolma in photography. and i will be able to take lovely photo's of my boy's.

 

?

right just looking at my options about what course to do...... there is either thurrock tech... which is good because it is in the college and it would be good to be with other people but looking at the btec course its a bit too basic for example you don't even need a camera at first? you have too do a year on that course before you can go on to the next one which is also a year. or there is an on line course that looks soooo good it had 12 models which take about 24 weeks or up too a year depending on how long you take to do it.  the one a thurrock tech is about £250 altogether  or the on line one is £550 which i would have a degree at the end of it and it seems to me that it teaches more. thinking about it i would have to do the next year at thurrock tech which would cost the same again ..... what to do i think the on line course would be better but its having time when bubba comes?

oh i think i will talk to Floyd and figure it out what ever way i can't bloody wait wooooooo hooooooo. he said i could do it now whilst we have the money so hopefully if i do it i can get a good start before bub's comes.

right going to do my shopping and watch eastenders 

so perfect

how can one photo show so much..  he loves his brother so much and i think this photo reflects that. one shot and it came out perfect just like my boys

yuck

well i feel poop today i have what floyd has had all week. yuck

so baby is breech at the moment hopefully he will turn so i can give birth at home.  i think he will turn. i have been looking on a few websites about different things i can do to help him turn.

can't believe there is only 1 game left boo hoo. i am going to miss my sunday mornings watching the boys. have lots to sort out about the new kit and the end of season do. have some good ideas about really making it a laugh at the do so it should be fun.

...... 

sleepy

i can't believe how sleepy i feel today zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

and i have been so uncomfortable for the last few days.. i have been tossing and turning at night as soon as i get comfy baby moves and then i get uncomfy ..... can't win lol.

and i just feel like putting on joggy bottoms and a jumper and being cozy... but i won't because i don't want to look like a a tilbury pregnant woman..he he

me floyd and blake are going to watch the west ham and newcastle game on the 26th of april i don't know how i am going to get through the turn mill? oh well i am sure they have a fat persons one.... well i hope

i am gutted that it is nearly the end of the season for our boys (crosskeys) what am i going to do with my sunday mornings?  ooooo nearly bootsale season thats good.

i am still thinking.....

that i was right ... you have not bothered at all so i will go along with what i said and you won't be told when he arrives because all that will happen is you will act like you have always been there ... which you haven't.

you will not have that privilege  and you don't diserve  it... shame really but you made that choice.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

So i brought baby's monitor yesterday which should come in the next 10 days..... and i got 25% off for having a promo code from a mag... its so worth looking around and not rushing it saves you so much money.

still a bit worried about the whole pushchair thing as its getting closer now... 

we wont get the furtinture untill his room is done.

still going to write a list today of everything that we need to get so i can just get it over the next 9 weeks...... eeeeeeeee i love buying all this baby stuff.

he still needs more clothes but we are getting there.

its all coming along

so the extension now has .... footing and is filled with concrete  woo hoo.  brick work should start next week so its getting there.

i think the next 9 weeks of my pregnancy will go super quick so much going on with the house and so much still to get.

me and Blake walk up the town on Thursday and by the time i got back i was so sleepy and my back was killing... it was then that i thought i am actually really big and pregnant now and i should rest when i am out. its gone so quick that its a bit of a shock the fact that we will have our little bubba in roughly 9 weeks. i really can't wait eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

popping to lakeside today to get Blakey some jeans and other trousers he has hardly anything that fit's he is growing soooo much. got to go to ikea as well. 

i have really enjoyed the sunshine over the few days i hate it that it is going to get cold again its just silly. 

like yesterday afternoon whist Floyd was waiting for the concrete to come him Blake and kyle where playing football out the front. i was just sitting in the sunshine watching its was lovely.... i really could have done with a nice cold beer at that moment... got to wait for ages until i can have one. oh well.

oh and another thing Blake's glasses fell out if my bag and dad trod on them D'OH.......  now Blake has another week without glasses... at least he is not at school.

creepy castle

well i cleaned out bowser yesterday and have decided that his cage is too small for him.... so i brought a new rotastak one its soooo good and i got it for a great price on ebay..... saved about £25.

so here it is creepy castle......

its sooooooo cool and it glows in the dark.

looking to the future

could i really go and leave everything behind.... yes i think i could, our life is good here and i love england but the more we talk about it the more i think it would be perfect.

we are not going to rush anything we must look in too it and think what side of the world do we want to go... aus i think would be the best place and they would snap floyd up... or america which is just amazing. i am really going to start looking in too it. and if we are going to do it we want to do it before baby will go to school.. blake would be fine he is such a happy little monkey and makes friends so easily. i will miss friends and family but we can't all be held back. 

haven't made up our mind yet but will look in too it..

well today i have got the building inspector  coming today to look at the footings and the people are coming to get the mud that is nearly as big as the house... and we have had such a result with the brick work.... its getting done for free so deans son can practice... its saved us soooo much money.  can't wait for the walls to go up so i can start planning when things are going to go...eeeeeeeeeeee baby will have a room and we will have a dinning room yay.

off to get dressed so i am not in my dressing gown when the building people come x