my sunshine

my sonny sunshine was born on the 23rd June 2008 at 4.12 am he weighed 9lb.

i was taken in too be induced at 6 o'clock on the 22ND. i was so set in my mind that things were going to be a nightmare. i could see it going just like Blake's birth did. ( i was so wrong)

they came round to induce me at around 7.45  i told the midwife that i didn't think the gel was going to work because i had it 3 time with Blake and nothing happened. she told me it would so i just relaxed and waited too see if she was right. she had put me on the monitor i started to feel tightening on one side of my belly but just thought it was the position he was laying in i think i was in a bit denial. she said it was tightening and that things will start to get going.

Me and Floyd were so sleepy we kept falling asleep. at about 10.45 i felt and heard a pop i thought that he has just made a sudden movement not even thinking my waters had broke. then about 10 minutes later the waters started coming out. i was in shock i think. i just kept saying i can't believe the gel worked my waters have actually broke. 

it took about an hour for all my waters to come out but once they did the contractions started. straight away they started at about 2/3 minutes apart they were pain full but controllable . as the hours went on they got stronger and were about 1minute apart. i asked for some gas and air at this point. well my gas and air came which just made me feel drunk but took the edge of a tiny bit.  i was falling asleep in between  contractions how i don't know. i had some weird dreams. then the contractions switched from being bearable to unbearable in a few minutes. i had hardly seen a midwife they just popped there head round once in a while. well at this point it felt like someone was pulling my insides out. the pain was so bad  that i was unable to stay still my legs were wiggling i was holding floyds hand and kept pulling it when i got a contraction. my gas and air thing was broke and was making a clonking sound every time i sucked on it which woke up the two woman next too me. at that point i really didn't care lol.

so Floyd called for the midwife and i asked for something stronger. she checked me and i was 4 cm  dilated. She told me i would be going to the labour ward soon. 

when she came back she said there were no beds ( nhs for you). another midwife came with a wheelchair and said they have to find me a bed. to stand up was so pain full  everything around me seemed  faded its weird to describe but i was in so much pain.

i could not take the gas and air with me so they wheeled me to labour ward. they rushed me in too room 9. which was not even set up properly. 

they got me on the bed the midwife who delivered sonny came in. she started to check me. i asked her if i could have some pethidine  but she said no because i was 10 cm and had to start pushing. i couldn't believe it it had happened so quickly. 

i remember being really thirsty  and asking for  Walter which i didn't get to drink because sonny was so quick to come out i had no chance.

i started to push and with two pushes could feel his head coming out. i gave another couple of big pushes and his head came. the first thing Floyd said was " he has a squidgy face" then she told me to pant and push then the shoulders came out then the rest just followed. she picked him up the first thing i saw was his feet they were massive.

she put him straight on too my belly he was perfect everything about him was beautiful. she cut the cord delivered the placenta then rushed out the room. me and Floyd were left on our own with our perfect son. i kept just looking at him. his hair was dark i couldn't believe how much he reminded me of Blake.  

we were left for about 30 minutes then the lady came to weigh him he was 9lb. i thought he looked smaller then Blake but no he was bigger. we put him in to his clothes and i latched him on and he started to have his first feed. that moment is always so amazing i remember it with Blake the instant bond and love you have for your baby is amazing. with Blake the song fast car by Tracy Chapman was on the radio with sonny it was bob Marley one love. i love that song and couldn't believe it was playing when i was having such a special moment with him. 

so all in all i was in labour for five hours and 12 minutes, i actually pushed him out in 8 minutes. 

this time round was so different from the first. with Blake it was so pain full at the end when i was pushing him out but i didn't feel the contractions because of the epidural. but with sonny the contractions where really bad but pushing him out did not really hurt. well it was so quick i don't think i had time to think about the pain.

we brought Blake up too meet his brother at about midday. i was going to be aloud home at 11 but they had to do some blood test on sonny so it was a bit later.  i think Blake was a bit overwhelmed and couldn't believe it. we went home at 2 o'clock. 

it is now a month since he was born and he is amazing. he is really strong and held his head up when he was one day old. it seems like he has always been here. i can not imagine life  with out him. he has got colic at the mo which is a pain but all in all he is a great baby.

i have wrote so much today i will right more about him when my fingers go back to normal. lol