how i feel about it all

i am trying not to stress about the whole thing but its so hard when all you get is reminders of what happened Floyd did not deserve that. all Floyd ever does is try to protect people that he loves and ends up getting glassed and kicked in the head. i am so angry at the whole thing and just want to scream but i know that i have to keep chilled because of baby. so many people have phoned,text or messaged me to ask how Floyd is and i am so great full to them.

the thing that is bothering me is everyone talking about getting them back which i do understand but i have told everyone please just leave it for now i really don't need anymore  stress. i just want my baby brought in too this world in a happy environment.

but every time someone phones Floyd they ask what happened and i have to relive it all again in my head.  and the fact that there was no way i could help him is horrid.

and i hate the fact that i can't even kiss my boyfriend on the lips.  i hate them for doing this to him. but i am going to stop talking about it now because i can feel myself getting angry again. i am going to enjoy half term with blakey boo and think about our hunky baby coming so soon x